I Want it NOW!!!

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Just being candid, it is one of my worst faults. It surpasses my gluttony desire for white chocolate covered Oreos, Funyuns, chocolate, Alfredo sauce, anything deep-fried. And did I say chocolate? It’s what I call the “NOW Syndrome”.  “Lord I have got to lose this weight NOW, you have got to heal this relationship NOW, I need this job NOW, you need to bless our finances NOW, and you have got to open this ministry door NOW…."

I will not lie, I confess that I had this syndrome way before adulthood. As a freckled faced, snaggle tooth preschooler,  I  was known to throw a couple of tantrums to get my way in the grocery store. I wanted that toy or miniature lip gloss at the check-out line and I would do anything to get it! I have fallen to the floor, kicked, screamed, held my breath, turned blue and  I  have even been known to  throw in a little “fake”  foaming at the mouth just to get what I want!  Honey I could have stolen that soap opera Emmy Award from Victor Newman many times! BUT…. well speaking of "buts", when my momma  got a hold of my butt... well, glory!! That is a “whole notha” devotion……

Years followed and I became old enough to date. I honestly can remember praying “Lord, please let me date “him” now, and then there was “him”, and “him”, and “him”….. Lord if you love me, let “him” ask me out now!! Hurry Lord, you don’t want me to be single all my life, do you?”

Just the other day, I saw one of the “hims” I had desperately begged and prayed and asked God to allow me to date. He was sitting in a restaurant eating his fourth burger, mustard all over his face, using vulgar language, and I know I am speaking  in the flesh here, but  can I just say….. Glory! Halleluiah! Thank you Lord for not answering that prayer when I wanted it!!

For so long I found myself trying to rush God’s will for my life. Many times what I want ”now” is not what I should have, or maybe God is saying not quite yet, I am still working and refining some things so that when I give it to you, it will blow your mind!”

I have learned humbly to let go, and let God take control. I will admit it has not always been easy. There have been nights that I have cried out to God and felt like those prayers were ricocheting back from the bedroom ceiling.  I will tell you that never once has my God failed me. Although I don’t always understand or cannot fathom why he would not answer the way I want, God knows what is best for me. His will is worth the wait and I want to be right smack dab in the middle of it!

Psalm 25:4-5

Show me your ways, Lord, teach me your paths. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.


What is it you are praying for NOW, your marriage to be healed, a new job, help with your finances, healing, your children? Don't give up! God is still working His plan.


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