I had run so far away. I had no one to turn to. Making matters worse, I found out I was pregnant. I was abandoned by my boyfriend and had a strained relationship with my parents. WHAT A MESS I HAD MADE!
I felt like God had failed me because my grandfather walked out on us all. I was under so much stress I thought I was going to lose my mind and began to have warning signs of problems in the pregnancy. Being the black sheep in the family and having no one to call, I called my grandfather. We hadn’t spoken but twice during the previous three years and I didn’t know if he would even talk to me.
As I began to tell him what was going on, he immediately said that "we" would be there as soon as possible. I had mixed feelings about the WE, because I knew that included his new wife and child. I still do not know how they got to me so quickly that night! They put their arms around me, loved me, and told me everything was going to be okay. I wasn’t so sure... how was I going to raise a child on my own? They convinced me to move in with them so they could help me.
Granddaddy made the dreaded phone call to my mom letting her know I was pregnant. I will never know what was said during that conversation, but things started to slowly change for us all after that call. We began talking and relationships began to mend. It was awkward at times, but God was at work. When I had the baby, my family was there with me. Several life changing things happened that weekend...
First, I became a mother receiving the beautiful gift of a baby boy. I saw a broken family joined together celebrating this new gift of new life. Hope for a brighter future entered my soul.
Next, my parents asked me to come back home so they could help me.
Lastly, my parents' pastor and his family came to visit me at the hospital. It was their first Sunday as pastor and they had never met me, however, they came and LOVED me. This display of God’s love began to break through the walls around my heart and reminded me of who I really am…a daughter of the King!
Days were not always easy and I felt so ashamed of the mess I had made. I moved back home and began putting the broken pieces back together. People encouraged me, accepted my child and me, and prayed for us. I rededicated my life to Christ and we continued to heal. I felt like the prodigal son in Luke 15:11-32.
Take a look at some of the things shown in these scriptures as it applies to all prodigals.
The younger one said to his father, Father; give me my share of the estate! ~Luke 15:12
The first signs of trouble in our lives come when we focus on ourselves and what we believe we are entitled to have. OUCH, that hurts! For me, it was my grandfather had failed and God allowed it to happen. I deserved better, I deserved to do what I wanted to do. I took what I thought was MINE and ran straight into trouble, just like the prodigal son.
He ran away, lived wildly, began to be in need, hired himself out...no one gave him anything. ~ from Luke 15:13-16
Prodigal living focuses only on yourself and the result is losing everything. I needed something so desperately to fill the void and I sold myself…right into the hands of Satan and he gave me NOTHING but DESTRUCTION. The void grew!
But when he came to his SENSES!!! ~Luke 15:17
Isn’t this what many of us are waiting on in our lives? Waiting for someone to wake up and smell the coffee? If I could only knock some sense into them... Notice, though, that when the prodigal was at rock bottom he began to realize even the servants at home were better off than he was. He had a GOD moment. Sometimes, you have to hit rock bottom before you come to your senses!
When he noticed his son from afar…the father planned a HOMECOMING. ~ from Luke 15:21-24
The father gave his son the best robe and put a ring on his finger. How many times have we acted selfishly when someone asks us to forgive them? How many times do we respond with the attitude of the prodigal’s brother? I encourage you to praise a prodigal on their return. My family encouraged and empowered me to make positive changes.
The father responds with love to the angry son. ~ from Luke 15:31-32.
You see, I was once dead, broken, destructive and wild. I squandered everything that was mine and sat in the pig slops alone… BUT through the love of others, the prayers of the faithful, and the revelation of God’s truth, I AM ALIVE AGAIN! We are blessed to have a father who loves us no matter what and rejoices in our homecoming!
This Father's love helped me put the pieces of my broken life together and gave me the strength to share this life changing love with others. I encourage you today to LOVE everyone…especially the broken. Love the prodigals, show them unconditional love that only comes from Jesus. It’s through Love the lost are found, the dead are raised, and the pieces are molded back together into the beautiful image of God.
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