Her voice began to break, and the tears began to flow swiftly down the side of her face. I placed her trembling hands within mine and began to squeeze them tightly. I could sense the pain, anguish, the shame as she began to fearfully share with me how she had chosen to end her pregnancy by aborting her child. “I feel so ugly, so sinful. I took my child’s life and it was all because I wanted an easy way out. I was so selfish. How can God ever forgive me?”
She then went on to describe to me how she had awaken from the procedure at that stale, cold, clinic and felt so all alone. Her story was filled with so much grief as she spoke about the remorse and sadness she had felt. I found myself as her counselor becoming bitter, frustrated, and teary eyed as she recounted the harsh, apathetic tone in her nurse’s voice whose only advice had been , “Here take this heat pad and sit in that chair until you get yourself together. Everything will be just fine…..”
Yet, everything had not been just fine. This young mother had been haunted by her hidden, past sin, she had awaken many nights to the false cries of a baby, she had been attacked by lies from the enemy of how she was worthless, would never measure up, and how God could never forgive her from her broken past. For years, the sorrow and guilt from this unmentionable secret had weighed so heavily upon her, until all the joy had been sapped from her young life.
God Offers Restoration
I found myself sitting in that office chair thinking back to some of the decisions I too had made in my past. Sinful decisions and poor judgement that at one time in my life had wounded friendships, almost destroyed our marriage, grieved my family, and nearly cost me everything. Regrets that for so long caused a deep constant pain, and overwhelming shame.
You see the fact is we are all just one poor decision away from changing the rest of our lives. There are times that the enemy will come at you like a howling wolf, with sharp fangs, just foaming at the mouth with his one intention to attack your mind, create confusion, scar your memories with shame, and make you believe that you cannot break free from the dreaded bondage of your past.
The truth is we cannot break free from our sin on our own, but in Christ there is healing, freedom, forgiveness, and restoration for you no matter what you have done!
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD. Psalm 40:1-3
Breaking Free From The Guilt of Your Past
There are some of you reading this right now, and you have been trapped in the guilt of your hidden past sin for so long. You have allowed that scum bag, pathetic, scally wag Satan to convince you that you can never be forgiven. Adultery, coveting, pornography, addictions, a past abortion, a hidden sexual sin, harsh words, stealing… It is time to remind yourself to rely on the grace of GOD and the POWER of the Holy Spirit, and rest in the assurance of knowing that GOD loves you and wants you to be forgiven. NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING you have ever done can cause God to love you any more or any less!
The Word of God tell us that when we repent and confess, that our GOD is FAITHFUL to forgive us. No matter how bad your situation may have been, no matter how much pain or anguish you may have caused someone else, no matter how bitter the words or how hurtful the gossip was that leaped from your tongue, God’s love and Jesus death covers it all. If you have turned from your sins to follow Jesus, then honeychild, glory to GOD, those chains have fallen, you have been set free! You have been FORGIVEN for what happened days, months, or even years ago!
Hallelujah! I praise my GOD, because I have been tee-totally forgiven of my past. By his wounds, I am healed. In Christ I am a new creation. SO don’t judge me, Beverly Weeks by my past, I no longer reside there!!!!
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. ~Romans 8:1-2
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