The pain swooped fiercely through my head. I could hardly bare the throbbing in my temples. My vision grew blurry, and from out of nowhere the severe headache caught me by surprise. In less than an hour, I had gone from laughter and my usual fun, outgoing, quirky self to being knocked flat off my size eight feet with a severe paralyzing, nauseating migraine. I found myself lying in the pitch dark on the sofa crying out to God for some sort of instant relief.
Immediately my mind started to fill with panic, what if’s, anxiety, thoughts, and assumptions that had me in an uproar as to what my medical diagnosis could possibly be…
You see I’m good at preaching to others about not worrying, but at that moment in a crippling physical situation, I tee-totally flipped out! My first response was completely opposite of what I had always shared. I became anxious and I panicked.
God, I’m Filled With Fear
I think back a little further to four years ago when my marriage began to crumble. I was walking around living a lie, acting as if I had it all together, yet deep inside I was lonely, craving a distorted life of excitement, tangled up in an emotional affair which had me spiraling out of control plunging down into a pit of coveting, discontentment, secrets and sin.
My hurtful, selfish actions had caused my husband to sink into depression. My children were filled with grief, fear, and so confused that they walked around our home like little zombies.
God, I’m So Broken & Confused
Many of you know all too well what the feeling of panic feels like. Maybe you have found yourself recently in the middle of a broken marriage or relationship, it could be that you’re going through a devastating separation period, or even walking out a messy divorce, maybe it’s your finances, a situation with a prodigal child, attacks of gossip, worries with your job, a circumstance with your health, and just like me you want to cry out, God, help me I’m scared!
The Enemy is a LIAR!!
Listen my friend, I don’t care how good of a person you are, how gifted, anointed, spiritual, you may teach Sunday School, sing in the choir, or even be the lead pastor, attacks will come! The enemy will haunt your mind with thoughtsof fear, doubt, and have you believing that things will never get better, that you will always be stuck in a rut, that you don’t deserve any better, that you are getting just what you deserve, that this is all your fault, that there is no such thing as forgiveness, healing or restoration…
I want you to know that Satan is a liar!!! In the name of Jesus, you need to grab that imaginary two by four and go to swinging with all the power that GOD has given you and slam that scally wag, backstabbing, betraying, defaming, falsifying rascal and all his pathetic demons in the head!! Things may look grim, have you down, your mind may be filled with questions, but OUR GOD has promised we WILL overcome! We don’t have to reside and take up residence in the pit of panic.
There is rest for the weary, there is hope for the faint at heart, there is a ridiculous, life changing PEACE that can come to us as Christians when we began to pray, get in the word of GOD, call upon and cry out the mighty name of Jesus! My friend you can rest in the promise of knowing that GOD saw this situation coming long before you did, and He has it under control!
I have seen God breathe life into my dead marriage, I have seen Him as I stood by the graveside and watched my mother in law bury her young son, I have seen Him as I sat in the Dr’s office and received the news that I had a lump, I have seen Him restore broken finances, and I KNOW without a doubt that my GOD is still in the miracle making, mind-boggling, life changing restoration business.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. Philippians 4:6-8
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